Thursday, September 27, 2007
No Special ReasOn foR thIS pOst.. it'S 9.09Am
i Din GEt ANy WInk Of sleeP Yet..
TheSe Whole Week SeriOUsly waS kInd oF niTzmaRe to Me aT timEs..
Not WantiNg to mEntiOn the DetaiLs.. buT the COncluSion..
At timEs..i Was LOst.. ToTallY loSt..
No Sense Of BeloNginG..
LookIng At The FamiLiar MiRRor..
LookIng at The FamiLiar Image tt reFlectEd bAck to My eyes..
There'S a gAL in My MirroR..
SomEtimEs i THink i Know Her..
SometimEs i ReallY wished I dId..
Where's thAt gaL whO used to Be fuLL of LOve?
Where's that GaL who Used to Be so ForgiVing n PassIonate?
Where's thAt Gal whO uSed to to Be so FUll or Zest n HOpe?
Where's thAt gal Who uSed to belIeve in Unconditional Love?
Where's thAt gal WHo uSed to Be so naIve n Innocent?
all these.. i Missed THAT HER at times..
But..
What She see In the mirrOR now is Someone..
LOST in trust in RelationsHIp..
evEry step DoesN't SeeMed to be thE right Path to Continue..
thIs is thE reSult of
ONCE HURT,
ONCE CRIED. and now..
SHE'S AFRAID..
SHE's confusing as hell..
yeah. she's north ans she's south..
and she probably never have it figured out..
thE fact thaT she Could Nv lie to HerselF is thAt
She MigHt Woke up OpeniNg her Eyes
With tearS Down her Face
She Clearly RemEmbEred the Days bAck
When She was Pushed doWn to the DeepEst n Darkest..
REmEmbered..
The PicturE of Razor Slashing Down hEr hAnd
leavIng a ReminDer For her For e Rest oF life..
RemEmbEred..
thE FeeLing of FoCusing thE pain On physciallY
inStead of Internally..
BUt to NO avAiL..
RemEmbered
thE Days He LeadEd Her on A unfamLiar pAth
holding Down hEr hand..
BUt let it Go..
leAviNg her iN miDDle of no Where..
RemEmberEd ALL the cRuel DeeDs he Did to Her..
turnIng his bAck on heR n walKed straiGht w/o Even a glAnce back..
SHouted At her whEN she cAught him Cheated..
havIng HIm MIA from her foR 4 days 3 nitZ n pretending
NOTHING had happEnd at all..
She remEmbEreD the feeLIngs how it FeLt lIke
knowinG he's Newly In love but Yet She is left HUng up,
Broken, ShatterEd Here..
she Watched with a bReakIng heart
As he slowly Fade Away..
she Find herself straining to remember everything abt that moment,
everything about hIm..
but soon, too soon..
his imageE vaniShes n the Fog Rolls BAck to its far Away place.
all these Could only be mEmory..
Lies n Lies.. FinallY.. STill LIes..
is the oNly thing shE got FRom hiM..
ENOUGHED is ENOUGHED!
she SeemEd to be traPPed in the past..
She trIed to GEt on.. shE diD.. befoRe another Step ForwaRd..
She RealisEd she Was BAck to The sAme spoT... unmoVEd..
thE past is HauntinG her..
the pResent Is scarinG her..
the future SeemEd immpoSible for thIs gal
who LOng yearn For the Right oNE..
She not aFraid of heighTs..
She afraid of FallIng..
she Not afraid of Darkest..
She afriad of whAt's inside it..
ONce, she Was toLd..
she Was all right to CrieD..
criEd as muCh as She wants..
as LOng as After TEars R wipEd..
she MUst manAged herself With a Smile
that COmes from HEart..
She did It somE how.. =)
YNIGHT_LADY
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Thursday, September 27, 2007
Thursday, September 27, 2007
